It's Time Again

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:…… a time to embrace”  Ecclesiastes 3:1,5

Well, it’s time again to return to journaling my walk with You, Lord.  It’s time again to begin sharing again the ups and down of it all with You on Earth.  It’s time again to share the glory You receive as You carry me through the good, the bad and the ugly, knowing that You use it all for good and for Your glory.  So here we go again.  May it all be to Your greatest glory.

Central sensitization= every nerve in my body being damaged and unable to filter the stimuli that come to me.  Now we know what is going on in my body but not the source of it.  After seeing two primary care doctors, eight neurologists, two rheumatologists and one ENT doctor we have the understanding of my affliction but not its source, what is causing it.  One step forward and another brick wall in front of us.  Now we continue to search for its cause.  Thank You, Lord, for giving Your understanding of what is going on and the  peace and grace to persevere until we know the source or come to a place of acceptance without the name of the source.  Either way You will uphold me and make my affliction possible to endure.  Where would I be without You?  Thank You, Lord, that I never have to find that out.  

The days and nights grow more difficult and my symptoms increase in number and grow more painful.  Sometimes I feel like giving up, Lord, but You pick me up and keep me traveling on Your path for me.  Sometimes I think it would be better for me to be with You in Heaven now, but You show me that You have a greater purpose in mind for my life and that it is important for me to fulfill that purpose.  Sometimes I take my eyes off of You, Lord, but You answer my prayer to keep my eyes on You, not on my circumstances.  Sometimes… but You.

So here we go again… keepin’ on keepin’ on with You by my side holding me up as we go forward.  Lead, guide, strengthen and uphold me as only You can.  Thank You, Lord.  Thank You.  All praise, honor and glory to You.