“My times are in Your hand.” Psalm 31:15
My e-mail today to those who need to know, Lord....
“For some time I have been having a lot more trouble when I drive our car/van. I kept telling myself that it was okay and that it was still safe for me to do so. Well, yesterday changed all of that. I almost had a very, very bad car accident that could have ended tragically. Thankfully the accident did not even take place, but it was a miracle that it did not. The accident would definitely have been caused by me. Since then I have had to pray and think hard about whether or not I could safely continue driving. As I prayed and thought things through, it became very evident that it is no longer safe for me to drive a vehicle... not for me and not for others on the road. As of today I am hanging up my car keys and will no longer be driving for my own safety as well as the safety of others. It is time. While I would love to be able to drive again one day, the bottom line is this. Unless a doctor finds the real reason for these neurological problems that continue to adversely keep progressing and find a treatment that would heal or reverse things, I will not drive again for the remainder of my life. It simply is not safe.
Also I am going to start using a walking stick (think hikers) whenever I have to walk by myself. Anytime we are away from home, Mike and I hold hands to stabilize me, however, lately, that is not helping nearly as much as in the recent past. I have stumbled and fallen twice. It is no longer safe anymore to try to walk by myself without assistance of some kind.
My many cognitive impairments have also worsened as have my vision (not fixable by glasses, etc.) and the use of my hands. I have had to completely give up my sewing and have donated my machines, fabrics, accessories and notions to a church sewing ministry that will use them to help children and others. I believe I can still crochet (and knit dishrags) for now since they don't require fine motor coordination, but I have not tried them lately. I am hoping to try them again very soon.
Life has changed for me in dramatic ways recently, but I am absolutely certain that the Lord will carry me through these and other changes when they occur. The way will be challenging and sometimes frustrating, but He will never leave nor forsake me. He will see that I have all that I need in the midst of all these things. Of that I have no doubt. God is good.
Just had to let you know what is going on in my health, especially since the changes are becoming severe. Life changes but not my love for you. It will last forever. If you have any questions, let me know and I'll do the best I can to answer them.”
Abba Father, You have a plan. Hold me in the shadow of Your wings as we walk forward in light of these new changes. You know what You are doing. I’m so thankful that You do. Praise You from Whom all blessings flow.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
