Good News But...

Thank You, Lord, for the safe and protected trip to North Carolina.  While the news from the doctor at Duke is “iffy”, the best news is that there is no ear involvement in my constant headache.  That is wonderful news.  One more possibility eliminated... thank You, Lord.  What a gift to be able to set aside any ear problems in the midst of all of this headache journey.  You are so good to me.  

Now we wait to see what You show the neurologist about my constant headache and all of my symptoms when we return in January.  Yes, I am way past wanting to know what is going on inside my brain, but I will wait longer if this is not the time for Your revelation.  Lord, it was “funny” the other day when I realized that this neurologist that I will see in January is the seventh neurologist that I have seen since all of this started on July 23, 2009.  I keep thinking that, in Your Word, seven is a number connoting perfection or completion.  How awesome it would be if this neurologist is THE one You will give Your true diagnosis to!  Yes, Your will be done.. but wouldn’t it be so incredibly awesome if You let us know what’s going on this time?  I get excited just thinking about the possibility!!!  AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

“I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come; I say: My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.”  Isaiah 46:10

“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.”  Proverbs 19:21

More At Duke

The time is almost here, Lord.  Another trip to Duke for another evaluation in hopes of finding out what is causing or contributing to my constant headache.  This time it is with an ENT doctor.  I’m not so concerned about my time with the doctor but the tests before I see him (3 hours worth) truly bother me.  As I read about them and their possible side effects, I became distraught.  I know that all of this is necessary even though I feel that nothing will be found through this evaluation.  I do know, though, that this needs to be done in order to confirm or deny that anything in my inner ear is causing or contributing to my headache.  Somehow, however, the possibility of worse dizziness, nausea and vomiting just doesn’t sound appealing to me.  The only thing I know to do, Lord, is to ask You to “handle” it all.  I want what You want in all of this.  I simply need more grace to go through it all and to receive the results of the tests.  Long ago I reached my own limits as to what I can stand to go through in this headache journey.  No one but You can do it.  I have no strength, comprehension, concentration, focus or health anymore.  In the past I’ve said that it’s all up to You, but now, even more, it’s all up to You.  Is that true diagnosis or diagnoses coming soon?  What do You have for me, Lord?  By Your grace I’ll receive whatever You have for me.  I’m tired, so tired.  Help, Lord...........

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”  Psalm 147:3

Ponderings

So many things going on in my mind lately, Lord.  Wonderings, decisions, planning and thanksgiving.  Just decided it all needs to be written down.  May that clear my brain to continue on my walk with You. 

My health- increasing areas of pain and exhaustion.  I feel like Job in chapter 2.  Yes, this too shall pass.  Right now though it is here and I need Your all-sufficient grace to get through it all.

“So Satan went out from the presence of the Lord and afflicted Job with painful sores from the soles of his feet to the top of his head.”  Job 2:7

“He replied... ‘Shall we accept good from God and not trouble?’”  Job 2:10

The election results- You are in control and I know that You will use this all together for good for those who love You and are called according to Your purpose, yet my heart aches for this nation and how we have forgotten that we need to follow You in all we do. 

“Jesus replied, ‘You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”  John 13:7

“For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’”  Jeremiah 29:11

Christmas- Every time I go into stores I see few or no Christmas reminders that the birth of Your Son is the real reason for celebrating Christmas.  Political correctness has seemingly taken over and Your Son is lost among the secular commercialism of the Christmas season.  How that must break Your heart much more than it does mine.  

“For to us a Child is born, to us a Son is given, and the government will be on His shoulders.  And He will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”  Isaiah 9:6

So many things going on in my brain, Lord.  I give them all to You, Abba Father.  You alone change hearts, minds and souls.  As I consider all of these things, please don’t let me forget that I am to be content in and to praise You in all circumstances.  Prayer and praise to You always and to You alone, Father.  May I be humble and contrite before You as You shower  me with You peace about the many things that I have on my mind.  You are enough and You are in control.  Keep my eyes on You.

“Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things.” Colossians 3:2