The time is almost here, Lord. Another trip to Duke for another evaluation in hopes of finding out what is causing or contributing to my constant headache. This time it is with an ENT doctor. I’m not so concerned about my time with the doctor but the tests before I see him (3 hours worth) truly bother me. As I read about them and their possible side effects, I became distraught. I know that all of this is necessary even though I feel that nothing will be found through this evaluation. I do know, though, that this needs to be done in order to confirm or deny that anything in my inner ear is causing or contributing to my headache. Somehow, however, the possibility of worse dizziness, nausea and vomiting just doesn’t sound appealing to me. The only thing I know to do, Lord, is to ask You to “handle” it all. I want what You want in all of this. I simply need more grace to go through it all and to receive the results of the tests. Long ago I reached my own limits as to what I can stand to go through in this headache journey. No one but You can do it. I have no strength, comprehension, concentration, focus or health anymore. In the past I’ve said that it’s all up to You, but now, even more, it’s all up to You. Is that true diagnosis or diagnoses coming soon? What do You have for me, Lord? By Your grace I’ll receive whatever You have for me. I’m tired, so tired. Help, Lord...........
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3
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