Well, Lord, it seems that You want us to return to Duke for further evaluation by two other doctors. Waiting to find out when. Thank You for Your perfect timing for those appointments.
Last night, Lord, You know that I just wanted to quit this headache journey. I was tired of hurting, tired of being poked and prodded, tired of no true answers to it all and tired of traveling from one doctor to another only to find that they can find nothing that answers the many questions about this headache. I whined and complained... then I heard the song on the radio “Be Thou My Vision” and You started turning me around. This journey is not about me. It’s all about You. I must “get over myself” again and stop trying to muddle through all of this on my own. I’ll never make it if I don’t rely fully on You for every step of the journey. You brought me to complete surrender again, however, I still need Your all-sufficient grace to live out that complete surrender in all of this. It just seems to get more and more difficult (shouldn’t be surprised by that at all) and my headache hurts more and more with greater intensity. The battle is getting so much more difficult. Thank You for continuing to persevere in walking me forward until You reveal all that You want me to know about this constant headache.
Forgive me (AGAIN!) for my wandering from You and Your ordained journey in me and through me. I’m so grateful for Your long-suffering with me. You are so good to me.
“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, and His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I said to myself, ‘The Lord is my Portion; therefore I will wait for Him.” Lamentations 3:20-24
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
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