Nervous

Why am I nervous, Lord?  I’ve been to a lot of doctor’s appointments in the past several years, but those that are coming up in the next two weeks are causing apprehension in me.  I don’t want that apprehension, but the Enemy seems insistent that I take my eyes off of You and worry about what “could” happen at those appointments.  While I fully trust that You alone are sovereign about what happens in those appointments, the unknown is hard to accept right now, especially about the appointment with the new neurologist.  I am weary (and impatient, I’m afraid) of not knowing what is going on with this constant headache.  I believe You have told me in Your Word that You are going to give this a name through this new neurologist.  I want the true diagnosis, but certainly wonder what that true diagnosis is and how it will change my life and the lives of those I love and care for.  Isn’t that the most ridiculous thing to do, Lord?  You have gone before me and You know what is coming.  You have already made the way for me to walk forward in whatever Your plan for me is.  You are Sovereign God and I need Your peace and grace for all these appointments.  Why am I worrying?  Ok, Lord, I know why.  I’m looking at things through the eyes of man, not Yours.  Such a foolish thing to do.  BY YOUR GRACE, I will walk into these appointments with hope in You.... that whatever happens is part of Your plan for my life so that You may increase in me and in the lives of others and that we will all decrease... all to Your greatest glory.  Not my will, but Yours be done, Abba Father... Yours alone. 

“The Lord is my Light and my Salvation; whom shall I fear?  The Lord is the Strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”  Psalm 27:1

“Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all of you who hope in the Lord.”  Psalm 31:24