Diagnosis #2

Well, Lord, I thought that door had been closed.  I thought that diagnosis had been eliminated.  Obviously I was wrong.  New Daily Persistent Headache... that’s the second gift You have given me lately.  First fibromyalgia and now NDPH.  The diagnoses just keep coming.  It is only because of Your grace that I am able to bear them, their symptoms and the knowledge that, apart from Your supernatural healing, I will live with these two conditions for the rest of my life.  They’re not life threatening and I am humbled about that, however I need Your grace to live with them throughout my life.  You can and will do that for this child of Yours.  Thank You for being You and showering Your gifts and grace upon me.  

One hitch, Lord, that will require an even greater measure of Your grace for me.  Who would have thought that I’d be “banned” from driving at the tender (yeah, right) age of 63?  Others have done it before me and I will be able to do it as well.  It’s just that this adjustment “clips my wings” and retards my independence.  That’s hard, Lord.  Of course You may remove that restriction for me at some time in the future, but, for now, I’m homebound unless someone takes me.  A new bend in the path You have planned for me... at least for now.  I don’t mean to complain, Lord, and I know You will use all of this for Your greatest glory, but, if I can’t tell You my heart, then I can’t tell anyone.  Just talking all of this out with You clears my perspective.  You’ll always provide my every need according to Your riches in glory in Christ Jesus, so I know that I don’t have to worry (that’s another thing that I don’t want to do).  Thank You for taking care of me always.  

“Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in  God my Savior.”  Habakkuk 3:17-18

“God is our Refuge and Strength, an ever-present help in trouble.  Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.... Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”  Psalm 46:1-3, 10